Reflections on 2024
i’m glad you came, i’m glad you left
2024 was quite the doosie for me, but also quite the answered prayer. each year pretty much starts off with preparation and celebration of my daughter’s life and motherhood for me. oh wow, what a blessing. as I just typed this, the gravity of that is sinking. I get to start off each new year celebrating my favorite person in the whole wide world and being able to bask in the empowerment and joy that motherhood brings. talk about setting the tone for the year.
2024 started off just the same. I made my daughter her birthday cake, I showered her with gifts. those who love her sent in birthday videos and I took her to ride a horse for the first time. no one in my family has ever ridden such a great animal, neither have I, but my daughter has multiple times now and will continue to do so.
2024 brought it with financial security and growth, spiritual commitment and huge transitions.
2024 brought confusion and gray areas galore.
2024 brought clarity.
2024 brought unexpected and bittersweet endings.
2024 brought life giving beginnings.
2024 brought setbacks.
2024 brought triumphs.
2024 brought anguish and regret.
2024 brought healing and vision.
2024 brought horrible truths and shed light on so many of my blindspots and parts of me that need attention and tender care. 2024 showed the dark side of my mothering journey and the ways in which I need to heal for my daughter to be a better woman, a softer woman, more empowered, more sacred woman than mySelf. it showed me the very ways that I may even be inflicting trauma onto her. and it also provided me with the tools to alchemize the very trauma I may be inflicting into origin stories of healing, propelling her and I to our highest selves.
I had to take a step back from naturealness birth and all that I envision it to me. though I took a step back in the public’s eye, not posting to social media, not delivering all the things I said I would from the newsletters to the podcasts and offerings, I was in winter mode, planning, reflecting, restructuring, dreaming, organizing. while I’ve learned that I make my best moves in secret, not telling anyone, not promoting, not publicly announcing what I will be doing and when, I’m excited to say that 2025 will be different, it has to be, I need it to be, my daughter needs it to be, the Mamas of this generation and our children need it to be.
naturealness birth has been gestating for quite some time now, it’s time for her to be birthed, right along side mySelf.
so here’s to 2025, here’s to discipline, here’s to consistency, here’s to dreams manifesting to fruition, here’s to abundance, here’s to execution, here’s to impact, here’s to healing, here’s to revolution.
